1:53am...

Evenin ;)

Just got back from climbing the stairs.  I also worked out at the gym for an hour and a half and went swimming for an hour lol.  What a day.  I had tons of energy!!!  Today was an awesome day because I got to see one of my most favorite Friends EVER.  Every time I see him, I smile for the rest of the day and can't stop thinking about him.  LOL So I thought I would write about him and how he makes me think for the rest of the night lol

He intrigues me!!!!  I love hearing about his day, his friends, his work, his hobbies, if he is up or down or just having fun.  I truly believe that everyone you meet crosses your path for a reason.  Some it is simple meaningless reasons but some change your life and sometimes even who you are as a person.  Usually in the past I am able to understand why people crossed my path.  There was always a reason....But this gentleman amazes me.  I feel like I met him before...In another life maybe.  And it really got me thinking because this person as well as a few others reach me in ways most don't.  Why did I meet these people the way that I did?  Why were they sent to me and why do I feel like I have known them forever and long to spend time with them?  Miss them if they are gone?  Worry about them?  Wonder how their day is going? 

These people have made me a better person, they make me feel and think and care and I thank them so much for it.  But I wonder because of past experience how long these people that mean so much to me will stay in my life?  Everytime I see you I wonder if it is the last.   

These people know me and like exactly what I like.  They can take me places most can't because of the connection/chemistry we have.  Especially when you have the same likes, sense of humor, passion ect...  Do you tell these people how you feel about them or just keep it inside? Is it messed up to have really strong feelings for a couple people at the same time?  If you did not want anything to change would you tell these people or just hide how you feel?  Or would telling them make your friendship better?

I always choose not to say anything because everything always changes when you let your feelings out... society has taught us to be scared of the truth lol.  For example I had a friend I used to meet quite often and it was the most amazing sex I ever had.  And when I told him how I felt.  That no one ever made me feel like that and I hoped it never ended he took me the wrong way and I never saw him that way again.  Why is it I can't just want to love to be with you but don't need to be with you.  Just getting the wonderful bits and pieces of you is so fulfilling.   

I hope if my Friend who came here today ever reads this he understands if we ever met on different circumstances we would be the naughtiest couple ever and my life would not be the same, it would be better because he was in it everyday.  But in this life I love just getting to enjoy you here and there, it is enough for me.  I hope that you never change how you think and feel about life.  You are amazing and make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world!!!  You are so handsome and so kind and I hope we can continue to just fulfill our carnal desires together.  New, Old, shared and borrowed hehehehehehe maybe even with others.   After all our conversations I hope you know I really do love being your friend!!!!  Just talking with you enriches my being!!!  You tha bomb baby!!!!! 

I will think of all my Favs tonight in my dreams!!! I am soooo lucky!!!  I get to have all the men I want!!!! In my dreams and in reality!!!! 

I love to love you all!!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxo   

Night night

Des