Is it odd that deep down inside I have always known that I am a bad girl.  Well a naughty girl lol.  I always liked excitement and even from a young age had sexual urges towards men and women.  I also noticed that as I grew older these urges got stronger.  However being raised in a small God fearing town what I had been taught suppressed what I felt deep down.  I had many experiences with boys and girls growing up and even though society said these things were wrong I always knew they weren't.  When I was 16 I met this man.  He was 43.  He drove a big fancy car and I had seen him going out with dancers from the local strip club I used to get into cause I looked older than I was.  He wasn't the most attractive man but he was well groomed and well dressed.  He talked the talk and walked the walk.  I had only spoken to him once at a friends house (most of my friends were 20-35 yrs old). One day there I was walking down the street and its really true that what you think in your mind is what creates your destiny and this proves I always wanted this.  This man drives by.  He slows down and says hey aren't you Cyndi's friend?  I said yeah I am aren't you...Don? (fake names lol)  Hey says yeah...  Why don't you get in and smoke one with me.  Now remember I am from a small town.  I might not know this guy well but I used to play with his niece when I was a kid lol her and I were actually born on the same day 30 mins apart, he just doesn't recognize me cause I am like 10 years older lol....Back to the story.  So I get in and am quite excited to know why he wants to take me for a ride. 

 

We drive and smoke and laugh and talk and he says I wanted to ask you if you would spend the night with me.  I was shocked...What do I say what do I say lol I am 16...All I wanted to do was look cool and say yeah without messing it all up.  He thinks I am 19 remember. So I say well aren't you forward....What makes you think I want to spend the night with you.  Then I wans't sure if what I said was too much.  A friend of mine used to try to teach me things for moments just like this (she was a tiger...I will write about her one day).  He smirks and says...I'll tell you what....I will make it worth your while and hey you never know you might like it.

 

I was too young to know what I was feeling but I was sooooooo excited.  I could barely talk and even my body felt this exciting feeling.  I managed to keep my cool lol well at least thought I did and we set a day and he let me out at home.  I thought about him EVERY DAY!!!  How could I not!!! 

 

So the day finally came.  He drove up outside and I wanted to run out to his car but I once again kept my cool, walked up, got in and was sooo nervous.  He could see it and gave me that little nudge...Don't worry baby..It's gonna be ok.  He rubbed my leg and never quite touched me there but just coming close was enough.  My pussy was throbbing and had never felt like this before.  After all the experiences I have had this was going to change things!!!!

 

We pulled up in front of his house.  I will never forget this house.  It was a true small old fashioned farm house.  Old wood floors old fashioned wood and wallpaper.  The old sink in the kitchen.  The old furniture set perfectly just like the early 1900's, I felt like I was in some kind of novel.  Something you read about. 

 

He takes me in, holds the door and says come have a seat I will be right back.  I hear water running.  He comes back and brings me to a candle lit bath.  In one of those huge old fashioned tubs with the claw feet.  It was beautiful!!!  He washed my hair and massaged me and washed me, it was amazing!!!

 

After the bath he took me up this long set of wooden stairs that were right in the middle of the house leading to the entire upper floor.  Again the atmosphere, smoke, western look, everything just felt right!!! 

 

When he said I will make it worth your while I understand what he meant!!!!  We spent the entire night taking it slow and touching and playing and making love.  It was the most amazing experience I will ever get to have.

 

We continued to see each other for almost a year and a half but nothing ever became of it.  He was like my Daddy.  He would take me out to eat, buy me things and then show me the time of my life.  I even had my first threesome with him and a friend of mine.  Getting in his car that day changed my life.  He taught me that chivalry is not dead and that no matter what people think it's ok to do something you love.  The age barrier was always too much for me.  I kind of regret being so young and naive and not knowing what I had in front of me.  I loved him to death!!! 14 years later I still remember everything like it was yesterday.  I always wondered if I hurt his feelings because I moved away.  I hope he knew how much of an impression he made on my life.  And I hope he knows I did love him and wish I knew what I know now when I was younger!!!! 

 

He made me realize that I can have fun with whatever I do and that no matter what sometimes you just have to give people a chance.  I can now see never judge a book by it's cover!!!

 

Thank you "Don" ;) I hope no matter where you are life is treating you well!!!

 

xoxoxoxoxxoxo

 

Des

 

I thought I would start posting songs...I like the way music makes me feel and some songs make me feel or think a certain way!!!

 

Here's to you tonight baby thanks for every moment!!!!