I am floating. Just waiting to see what the next page in life says. I am here waiting but what is it/who is it I am waiting for. Is this it? This is what I am to expect. Everything just always remains the same. No steps forward, no steps backwards. Even if I take steps forward something happens and I take those steps back so I was right where I started. Because I am able to take care of myself doesnt mean I don't need what you can give me. Ever heard of the secret? I try it all the time and then things happen. What I wish for comes true but with a consequence. The effects of positive thinking are not always positive lol. For example lets say you ask for a stable job and everytime you get a free moment you say I am going to get a stable job just like the Secret book says. So you get a job, it's really stable. But you have to take the bus for 2 hours to get there and the pay sucks and the staff is rude and unprofessional. But hey the job is stable. There is lots of work. You practiced the positive thinking and got the job lol but not the one you wanted. So instead of saying you want a stable job should you be saying I want a stable job, with good pay, a short commute and nice co workers? LOL do you really have to be that specific for the laws of the universe not to fuck with you ROFLMAO So yeah that is what keeps happening. I ask for something I get it but its all messed up lol. So I get specific and nothing happens for months. Then I go back to trying to wish for small things and again I get it but the laws of the universe are messing around again lol.
I always believed if you are in the right place at the right time with the right people doing the right thing, nothing but good can happen. Even though so many things happen that make me loose faith I try to stay positive.
So here I am wondering. Everything that the universe has set before me right now...Why is it here. Why do I feel /think the way I do and why do I CONSTANTLY get thrown things I cannot have?
Life is weird. hehehehe I am ridding the roller coaster and right now it's pretty damn good. But when is it going to come down and go through some loops lol. I am riding the roller coater blind because I dont see the loops and turns coming up hehehehehe
I am trying...Go with the flow....Whatever happens...Happens
